Post 71 – Compilations are done… (Dec. 14 2008) Edited a LOT
Sorry for the LONG ass post, but I upgraded the blog software after doing some server maintenance that sadly borked the old database and I had to pull all the entries out of the backup *.sql from scratch and pretty much re-write all the posts by hand. I altered the post time for the three of them since it took me an average of 5 hours per set… Man that formatting was a bitch.
Because of pulling this from the database directly some posts from the Server Status blog made it into this blog by accident and I didn’t feel like screwing with it. There are also a couple that ended up out of order somehow?
If you don’t want to read this LONG post I can sum it up for you real easy.
- Posted about random crap for about a year or so
- Moved out of state, it sucked, moved back
- Got Cancer
- Had three surgeries (2 in my chest, 1 in my neck)
- Met a girl named {NAME REMOVED} … I love her with all my heart {Or so I thought}
- Found out the cancer is gone (for the most part)
- Spinal cord was damaged from Chemotherapy (see the photo below)
- Borked the database while moving my sites to another cluster on the server
- Used that as an excuse to upgrade the blog software and was forced to create these long posts
I’ll make a ‘real’ post sometime soon. {P.S. Today (12/14/2008) is Nick’s birthday; yesterday (12/13/2008) was Paul’s.}
Post 70 – Research, College, Medical… (Oct 22 2008) Edited a LOT
As some of you know my back is pretty screwed up and it’s really REALLY beginning to piss me off. There’s days I can’t even get up let alone do anything for the day, there’s even been a few times I had to have a friend come over and practically carry me to my car so that I could make it to a doctors appointment. Anyway, I can’t remember if I posted an image about how messed up my back was or not and I’m feeling too lazy to look. Speaking of “can’t remember” I did some research about the side effects of Chemotherapy and some of the drugs they injected me with for over 6 months and found out that my short term memory lose is called “Chemo Fog” and is apparently very common, lasting anywhere from a year to the rest of my life. With that note, to the people I’ve promised to hang out with, take somewhere, or whatever I said, if I forgot, stop bitching at me because I told you I can’t remember shit anymore. For those that want to be helpful and tell me I should start carrying a little notebook to write things down in, been there, done that, lost 9 little notebooks so far.
Anyway, I started going back to college a few weeks ago and I’m hoping to get my Associates degree in Web Design. I’m in the middle of my third week (online courses) and it’s not that bad. The only part that I don’t overly like is the fact that I’ve never really been an artist and we have to draw a lot of stuff. Since the chemo and especially my back I have trouble keeping my hands steady which is making my art worse. Don’t get me wrong, my art isn’t all that bad and I must be doing something right since my grades aren’t in the toilet (yet). The professor is great and very helpful working with me around my doctor appointments and giving me encouragement when my art looks like hell. I’ve met some cool students in the class as well, so to piss off my friend I’m not dropping out. (Wouldn’t even if it did fully suck, cause this is expensive.)
Last but not least the picture I mentioned above. (Bet you can’t guess what’s wrong?)
Post 69 – Been awhile… (Sept 2008)
Well, the good news is I’m done with Physical Therapy and I’m able to walk again (mainly with a cane still, but it’s better then it used to be). I was accepted to College this morning so I’m working on my financial aid and getting ready to start classes in a few weeks.
Post 68 – Sorry for the lack of updates (Unknown Date)
I’ve been really busy with doctors, pain, etc… so I haven’t had the chance to update in awhile (plus my memory is kind of shot, so I mainly keep forgetting). Um… Sadly, I remembered to do an update, but don’t really have much to say right now. I’m currently working on a few website projects for friends, work, and personal crap which are coming along nicely, but I can’t seem to keep my attention on them so it’s slower then it should be having them go live.
Later
Post 67 – New “Feature” (Unknown Date) Was Useless
Post 66 – Random Updates (Jan 2008) Was Useless
Post 65 – 4am… Woohoo… (Unknown Date)
I’m going end up taking a short nap after the current episode of House is over since I have 2 doctor appointments today (10am and the other I think is 1:45pm)… I’ll look when I get up in the morning… Again, I wonder, if they want to test my blood so often why don’t they just take a big fucking bottle or whatever it is, like the Red Cross… (I know a lot of it is to check ‘current’ status of my blood, but for the other shit?) They take like 3 to 8 vials every time… I don’t really mind, but lately it’s been making my arms hurt. Doesn’t help the miss the vein a lot too.
I’d say “Quote of the day…” but I sure as hell forget to do this daily… So…
Quote of the “Um Whenever I Feel Like It”… (that one works)
“You can’t tell him the truth… so you want me to lie to him? Close your legs!” (Don’t ask, I couldn’t remember the other one I wanted to use)
Post 64 – Just a random update… (Unknown Date)
I don’t really have a point to this update… but a few things I wanted to mention though…
- {NAME REMOVED} is wonderful, she’s changed my life in so many ways… I don’t think I’d be able to deal with all my medical problems if it wasn’t for her support.
- Speaking of medical problems, I don’t have any more doctor appointments this week, but I may end up going to my regular doctor tomorrow to talk to him about some “Side-Effects” I’m having that are really fucking with my head.
- Todd, Paul, Nick, Nathan, etc. have been pretty helpful lately too…
Um, had a PET Scan on Friday, but they haven’t called me back with the results, so I’m praying for good news.
I’ll write more later, I have a headache.
Post 63 – Updates and other stuff (Oct 20 2007) {Edited Jan. 01 2010}
I was talking to {NAME REMOVED} … (the girl I mentioned in the last post and I’m currently talking to her online as I’m writing this) and as you can tell, she gave me permission to talk a little bit about her after I made her blush a lot when she read that post. 🙂 Below is a picture of her… Isn’t she beautiful?
{Picture Removed, as well as most personal comments in reference to said person.}
Anyway, I’m going to get back to talking to her now.
Post 62 – Random Shit… at least it’s an update (Oct 19 2007)
Today’s my mom’s birthday… But the good news is, that I’m pretty much done with the doctors, with the exception of the normal blood work and tests to make sure the cancer doesn’t come back. I had three surgeries overall. Two in my chest and one in my neck.
The biggest plus to talk about is I met someone that likes me for who I am and I really care about her… I haven’t smiled this much in such a long time, and it’s all her fault… 🙂 I won’t go into specifics about her without her permission though so 😛 Well, I’ll be heading off now to get some work done before she gets back online.
Post 61 – POS Car, Damn Doctors, etc… (July 23 2007) Was Useless
Post 60 – TravBuddy, POS Car, Damn Doctors (Was Useless)
Post 59 – Upgrade Gone Wrong… (Was Useless)
Post 58 – Updated my MySpace Finally (Oct 27 2007) Was Useless
MySpace Profile
Post 57 – Busy as hell (Oct 15 2007) Was Useless
Post 56 – Oops (Was Useless)
Post 55 – Title Removed on Jan. 01 2010 – (Original Post on Sept. 12 2007)
{Was useless, and can’t legally talk about it anyway}
Post 54 – Man, I have to update more often… (Unknown Date) Was Useless
Post 53 – Upgraded the hardware on the server again (Unknown Date) Was Useless
Post 52 – Instant Messengers (June 26 2007) Was Useless
Post 51 – Damn… Where’s the time go when you’re hooked up to tubes all the time? (Unknown Date)
I just got home from my third full round of Chemo and I’m in the typical “I want to die right now” phase. It wouldn’t be so bad if I was vomiting all the time. At least it’s not like non stop vomit, it’s more like a 4-6oz pool of nasty liquid that happens ever few hours. Now that I’ve grossed some people out, I’ll get on to the good news. I now have a roughly 2 to 3 month break from Chemo in which time I’m going to have the surgery on my neck to remove my cancer and most likely have radiation therapy localized there as well. My best guess at this point is the last week of July or first week of Aug.
Post 50- Been spending a lot of time on Pogo… (Unknown Date)
{Yeah, I just realized when I did the compilations last time I ended up with 2 number 50’s, but I’m not going to dick around renumbering everything. P.S. I don’t freaking use Pogo anymore, cause $40 a year is bullshit when they were supposed to ‘grandfather’ the account due to a deal made in ’06}
Post 50 – First part of Chemo (Unknown Date)
I had my first part of Chemo earlier this week. I was admitted to Wilson hospital Monday afternoon and they didn’t start the injections until around 8pm which lasted until about 3am or so. It didn’t hurt much and I’m doing pretty good I guess, I have a butt load of different pills I’m taking now, so it’s like I’m my own pharmacy. Anyway, can’t really think of what else to write about and I’m going to head to my brother shortly but wanted to do an update. As far as I know the other half of this Chemo “set” is going to be April 2nd – 6th (or 7th). I’ll be in the hospital for around 5 or 6 days total this time, but I’m going to take my Xbox with me so I’m not that bored. 🙂 If I can come up with the money, I’m going to get a new laptop to take with me so I can have internet and something to do while I lay there with cords sticking out of my chest. Enough rambling, I’m heading out and I’m a little light headed so once the medicine kicks in, I’m off to see Tom.
Post 49 – Surgury… and Heart Test thing (Feb 28 2007) Links removed
I had the MediPort installed yesterday and everything seemed fine as in no pain at all yesterday… Damn I hurt all day today. I went in at 11am to have the Heart Monitor thing this morning and the lady had me holding my left arm over my head for about 10-20 minutes which sucks because my neck, arm, and chest all hurt like hell on my left side, which is where they put the port in. They gave me a knock off Darvocet which doesn’t seem to do a damn bit of good, I think I’m going to ask them for something stronger tomorrow. Anyway, if you want to take a look at a couple of photos of the tube thing (you can’t see it that well because it’s a old broke ass webcam that’s been through hell) the pictures are located here. (The aren’t gross) When you look at a picture just use the back button to check the others or come back here.
Post 48 – Weekly Health Update (Feb 25 2007) Edited a LOT
If I can keep to a weekly update that would be great… Well, it’s 11:15pm on a Sunday night and I’m sitting my ass on the computer… go figure. Not that I ever did anything “fun” on the weekends. For those that are reading this cause they care, I appreciate it, for everyone else… um, whatever.
Tues. morning (2/27) Operation to have a MediPort installed in my chest (see below for description)
Thurs. morning (3/1) Meeting with my specialist to see if the MediPort healed enough to start Chemo on March 5th or 6th (depends on which day the bed is available)
Fri. evening (3/2) If the doctors don’t make any comments I’m going to get drunk as hell 😉
I’m going to finish watching “The Dresden Files” on Sci-Fi now, so I’ll write more after Tuesday.
*A Mediport® is a device that is implanted under your skin so that medications may be delivered directly into your blood system. The Mediport® is designed for safe, long-term use in your body. It can stay in place permanently if necessary. When not in use, the only care a port requires is flushing once a month with a solution of heparin and saline to prevent blood clots from forming inside the line and causing a blockage.
The round part of the device that can be felt under the skin is called the reservoir. When the port is “accessed”, a special needle is placed through the skin into the reservoir through a plastic membrane called a septum. The raised “septum” is made from a self-sealing rubber, which allows repeated injections into the port so that you do not need to get injected directly into the skin or have an IV (intravenous) line inserted each time you require medication. You may also hear the terms Port-A-Cath®, Infuse-A-Port®, or other similar terms, these are other products that serve similar functions. (Taken without permission from here I don’t see the problem in the link, I googled it)
Post 47 – Health Issues… and other stuff (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
(Note for people coming from the Server Status blog: Other entries in “Archigos’ Life” blog contain adult language that some readers might not approve)
It’s 12:04am and I’m finally getting around to doing the updates that I’ve mentioned to people that I was going to do for at least a week now. As some of you know by now I’ve been in and out of the hospital a lot lately (around 20 times or so since Dec. 26th). On Feb. 6th I was informed that the doctors officially diagnosed me with Cancer as of Jan. 29th and as you can imagine, things have been a bit frustrating and difficult. This all took me by surprise and I’m still in the middle of a lot of tests that have to be done. Because of everything going on I am no longer able to work a normal full time job, however I will still continue to do work for ICT/CSC as much as possible because I’m going to really need the money to cover all these medical costs. I have a few friends and co-workers that will be helping me out doing the computer work, but they all have other jobs so things might be a little delayed more than normal, but it’s the best I can do right now. I’m still having a lot of tests done and will be having some minor surgery to get a tube put into my chest that they will be using for my Chemotherapy that starts in a few weeks. I’ll write more about the types of tests they have done and other stuff soon, I just can’t think right now.
Post 46 – A new year… Yippie? (Jan 10 2007) Edited a LOT
Damn time flies when you’re NOT having fun. Cincinnati wasn’t a bad area to live in, there were just things that complicated a lot of my life to the point it wasn’t feasible for me to stay there. Anyway, enough about that, granted there isn’t much else to say other then “I hate New York” As you may have guessed from the lack of updates I’ve been busy as hell, I haven’t had time for anything fun for the most part. However I met a girl over the weekend, she was pretty cool, not sure if she liked me though cause I normally come off a little “Asshole-ish” when I meet someone for the first time and I’m nervous. I forgot to mention on the Server Status blog that there wont be anything up and running on Jan. 13-17 due to the fact I’ll be in the hospital on the 15th for some minor surgery and I’m too lazy right now to log back in that one and change it, hell, it’s almost 4am on a Wed. morning, I should be sleeping. If you (yes, I said you, because I know I most likely have like one reader for this damn thing) know anyone that does graphics email me, I have some projects I wouldn’t mind some help with. Most of the projects I’m talking about probably wouldn’t be able to pay much for the work, but we might be able to make a deal for software/hardware, etc. Either way, I’m going to grab a quick beer and go to bed since I’m not working today…
Post 45 – A new year… a lot has changed… (Jan 10 2007) Edited a LOT
Well, it’s 2:42am on Wed. January 10th, 2007 and a lot has changed since the last post. ICT/CSC moved back to New York around Sept. 06 after it’s “waste of time” in Cincinnati. I’m finally getting around to updating all the sites on the server, check the beta site for links to the new/updated stuff… (the links marked “In Progress” might not work still)
Brief list of updates: List removed and no longer relevant
Post 44 – Busy as hell… (Unknown Date)
As owner of ICT/CSC I was staying semi busy while I lived and worked in Upstate New York. After moving to the Cincinnati Ohio area (April 8th) things have just gone crazy. Things aren’t “booming” as much as I’d like with my company, but I don’t really have the time for it right now anyway. I’ve been working a lot in the HVAC (Heating and Air) and Home Renovation Industries. I’ll write more soon, I have to get rid of this damn migraine.
Feel free to contact me about anything in regards to:
ICT/CSC (Independent Computer Technicians/Computer System Consultants)
Owner/President
{Two other businesses that I have nothing to do with anymore}
Post 43 – Sorry it’s taken so long to update (Unknown Date)
With the move to Ohio (and many other reasons) ICT/CSC has “kind of” been put on hold. We will be updating the websites soon (I hope in the next week or so). I have some ideas of different things I want to implement into new sites as well as a full redesign of the main site. Feel free to email if you have any questions or concerns and I’ll try to get things taken care of as soon as possible.
Post 42 – Spam the fuck out of this loser…. (Unknown Date)
Some Douche bag with the IP Address “216.255.184.194” created 43 blog accounts here on March 19th.
Basic Details…
Blog Name: Random Drug Product (ex. Viagra)
First/Last Name: Random Bullshit (ex. Peter Hilarious)
Most accounts had a single entry which abused META REFRESH so that it took you to a website for some online drug store… (Typical scam shit)
Funny thing is when I checked WHOIS for this asshole it says that the domain was registered 2 days after all these accounts and posts were made (yet my blog software makes you verify your email address when you sign up), but you know it has to be the same person because if the domain just plain expires it’s held in a suspended state for around 30 days to give the person the opportunity to renew it. Below is the result of a WHOIS query from “whois.webhosting.info”.
Lyle Emmanuel
1000125582 fax: 1000094719
Suite 150
Libreville Libreville 1544
GB
By the way, I’ve been in Ohio for over a month now (doesn’t seem that long) and things are going good. I’ve been working hard as hell not only bringing my company down here but working in HVAC (heating and air). I would have posted sooner but we’ve been on a job site in Northern Kentucky. I’ll write again soon.
Post 41 – Finally Updating (Apr. 28 2006)
24 hours from now will make a full three weeks that I’ve been in Ohio and it’s going great. Granted there’s a lot to get used to and a bunch of shit going on at once, but the only complaint I really have (other then Jen) is these damn allergies. Anyway, I’m busy as hell most of the time so I probably wont be updating too often… Once things fully get settled I’m going to try to get some of these entries on a regular basis. (Maybe once a week on Sunday or something) I have to update my Server Status blog and actually the entire main site because I opened ICT/CSC here in Loveland. I’m going to get going, but figured since Nathan and a few others have this on RSS at least they’ll know I’m doing ok…
Post 40 – New updates coming this weekend… (Unknown Date)
We are going to have some great news coming this weekend.
Post 39 – Made it… (Apr. 8 2006)
I made it there and I’ll update later….
Post 38 – From Server Status blog with a little extra info… (Was Useless)
Post 37 – Important News (Apr. 2, 2006) Was Useless
Left a post about a sudden move to Cincinnati Ohio that took place April 8th.
Post 36 – Site Changes (March 2006) Was Useless
Post 35 – Life… (Unknown Date)
All I can say is “What the hell?”. There’s a lot going on now that is driving me nuts and I can’t figure out what to do about it. I’m going to see a doctor tomorrow for the issues with my abdomen and have a couple tests done (that’s going to suck ass). I’ve already mentioned stuff to the people I think read this the most so I’m not going to really say much about the medical crap. Anyway, J.J. (the guy that helps me run ICT/CSC) and I have decided that we are going to be removing some of the other sites that I worked hard on making (bastard didn’t help with them but he knows I agree with his judgment). Not sure what else to put except I want to thank the people that have been helping me out a lot lately in my personal life. You guys are the best and I’m not sure how I’d keep my sanity without you. Plus side: I think my attempting to quit smoking is working and I hope to quit by May 1st.
Post 34 – Sick… (March 12, 2006)
Haven’t updated in a week or so since I’ve been pretty damn sick. It’s getting to the point that if I don’t get my insurance back I wont live to see my next birthday… The few people that actually seem to care are even getting worried. Hell I talked to someone earlier today (I only had pants on, no shirt, don’t ask) and the first thing out of his mouth was “You look like a fucking anorexic ghost”. He’s right, I’m white as hell and I’ve lost over 20 pounds since Jan. 1st. which really isn’t good. (I’m down to about 135ish lbs.)
Post 33 – Title Removed… (Was Useless)
Post 32 – Title Removed… (Was Useless)
Post 31 – Some New Updates (Was Useless)
Post 30 – Update for the week of 2/13 (Feb. 12, 2006) (Was Useless)
Post 29 – Updates? What are updates? (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
Listening to: Yiddish Music and singing along
A lot has been going on and there’s just a bunch of crap going through my head… so this post will probably seem all random… I’m not really sure what to type, what to “let out” but I figured not many (if any) people read this that actually know me, so what the hell… If you actually know me, then you probably know that I have issues with depression and anxiety. Anyway, it’s been a lot worse lately due to a bunch of pricks that I know that don’t know how to keep their shit to themselves. I’m going to update the Server Status blog shortly with some info about site updates that I’ve been finishing up… damn, it’s been awhile since I updated that too. I recently was in contact with some old friends from the military and found out most of them are being sent back to Afghanistan “again”. I miss being in… serving my country… mainly just NOT being in New York. Since I can’t go back in, all I’ll say is I wish them luck and hope they stay safe.
Post 28 – Updates, Community, etc… (Jan. 2006) Edited a LOT
We’re over a week into the new year and there’s been a lot going on.
1. Added a few more features to the Community section (Still in beta, so non testers WILL see a blank page still)
2. Configured new software for Support site
A. Ticket System for requesting help (already in place)
B. Knowledge Base will different help articles and links (will probably be uploaded this weekend)
3. Re-configured the new forum software and tweaked it for faster loading. (All users and posts from the old forum are gone)
4. Created a few new sub-domains that will be entering beta phase the week of Jan. 23rd. (I’ll hint more later)
If you are interested in beta testing any of our new sites (including the community section) send us an email and let us know. We are also looking for experienced web and graphic designers.
Post 27 – Update on “Special News” (Jan. 2006)
First off… Happy New Year to all the friends and family of the ICT/CSC staff and it’s customers. As for anyone following along with the “Massive Changes” to the company they haven’t had any new news. There’s a sad reason to this. Near the beginning of December my lawyers informed me that I can not announce anything new to the public or even on this blog. The deal that we worked hard on fell through. It’s not a complete lose though, we did raise some money in a small unannounced bake sale that allowed us to donate some money to the Red Cross. (Due to personal reasons, we do not donate at the local Red Cross, instead we stay in contact with a branch of the Red Cross that is in another state. This may not seem “fair” and it’s not done as some kind of tax benefit.) ICT/CSC has started working on sites for other companies and people, which has slowed the development of our sites a little, but we WILL have the Beta Site updated by the end of the month. The community site is coming along slow due to the beta testers having script issues that we can’t seem to reproduce on our machines.
Post 26 – Friend Update (Unknown Date)
Ha, the idiot has been in the police blotter at least twice in the last few weeks. As for the girl, I started to hint to her that I was going to ask her to the movies or out to dinner (yeah, I sound like a little kid) but she told me that she’s going on a Road Trip to NYC and I bailed on asking. I haven’t had a chance to see her or talk to her since. I’m not sure if I could at this point.
Single for years, stupid for just as long. Damn I’m lonely.
Post 25 – Life is unfair (Unknown Date)
I was just talking to a friend that has had a lot of shit go wrong in his life lately. It makes me look at my life in a whole new way. Don’t get me wrong I’m not going for sympathy, but life isn’t fair. I have my fair share of medical problems but damn… I can’t really explain it. Over the last few months, he’s had a lot of shit happen all at once… more then I could comprehend in my life.
Post 24 – Site updates will be coming hopefully this weekend. (Was Useless)
Post 23 – Happy New Year (Dec. 31, 2005) Edited a LOT
Hey, it’s been awhile but I’ve been very busy with a lot of things in my life. I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year and (even though it’s already passed) Merry Christmas or Happy Chanukah to those that celebrate. Chanukah wasn’t that bad this year I’ve slowly updated some of my other non work stuff, like my MySpace page, Yahoo! 360º page (don’t use it anymore) and some others. Yes, the pages still suck, cause I don’t have the patience to mess with them much. I really got to get around to updating sites on my server. I’m going to hopefully update the Blog’s main page and the Beta site soon. I’m going to create a Mirror site soon to help host files for some guys that work on projects I’m interested in…
Post 22 – Just to clarify (July 16, 2005) Edited a LOT (Links inactive)
Just a clarification, we’re still going to use the beta site for information about issues on our sites that are not yet in full production or for parts of the sites that we are in “testing” phase for. This Server Status blog is going to be for “The site is down” or “We are going to be down for maintenance” type things. If you want to keep up with everything going on and give us a hand your best bet is to check here first, then head on over to the beta site.
Post 21 – Birthday (July 14, 2005) Edited a LOT
My brother turned 27 today… and I had to work. I don’t see him much and when I do, it’s not like we hang out or anything. Even though I know he wont read this, I figured if anyone wanted to wish him a Happy Birthday they can on here and I’ll tell him about it.
More good news, a “friend” of mine, screwed up… he screwed up bad. Now, why would I call this good news, well, it’s because he screwed up a friendship he had with a girl. Her and I have been talking for a little while now and I kind of like her. Granted I wouldn’t have the guts to tell her that, at least not yet. I’m thinking about asking if she’d like to go to the movies or something… I’d be good for me to get out for a change and damn, she’s cute. Anyway, another soda, another cigarette and I’m probably heading to bed, sleeping pills are starting to work finally.
Post 20 – Working on new content (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
Check out the beta site for more information. (We are giving the beta site a full overhaul this Friday as well.)
Post 19 – www.ictcsc.com / www.ictcsc.net (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
The rest of the upgrades have now completed and you can view our sites from both “.net” or “.com”. If you have any problems visiting one of our sites with .com, use the .net and send us an email so we can fix it as soon as possible.
Please note, that NONE of the .com sites work anymore, we “lost” that domain awhile back to Domain Squatters. Fucking Bastards! (Added 12/14/2008)
Post 18 – New Server Status area (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT {Now useless, just commented on the new SSB}
Post 17 – Mixed Information (Unknown Date)
Company Related
I’m going to setup the “Server Blog” probably tomorrow and hopefully finish up some of the other site projects I’m working by the end of the week. I’ll wait on posting company and server related information until that is finished… At least it’ll give me a few posts worth to start with.
Non Company Related
I’ve now been at my “Secondary” job for over a year (I hit one year on the 26th of June) and I love the job, but things are getting rough. I’m having medical issues that I can’t seem to get under control and it’s putting my job at risk. Not really sure why I’m writing this, I guess it’s the fact that I know my co-workers don’t read this, not that it’d matter anyway. Last Saturday was pretty cool, one of my friends got married and I have a crap load of pictures that I’m developing for them. The wedding got me thinking though. I’ve been single for somewhere around four years now and it just brought back memories. Not really of a specific person, even though I can say there is a certain person that I miss more then I could ever express and I loved her more then I ever thought possible… Hell, I still love her, but I just want her to be happy because I know she’d never want to be friends again. I guess I’m just lonely which is making my depression more of a pain then normal. It’s 1:22 in the morning, so I’m going to stop for the night, but I’ll get around to the updates later..
Post 16 – Life Sucks (Unknown Date)
I haven’t updated much since I changed the sites around… Oops, my bad. There’s been a lot going on and the stress is getting to me. I’m continuing to update pretty much each aspect of the server and if everything goes well, I’ll be moving the entire server (and sub domains) to a larger/faster server. Not really sure why I’m posting Site Information here instead of on the main site, but I think if I get everything worked out and move the server I’ll make an “extra” blog, one for “Archigos’ Life” which will go back to being my personal opinions and whatnot, and a “Server Status” one. Anyway, I’m going to get back to writing more code and working on updating more parts of the site. I’m looking at introducing a few new features shortly and they should be labeled on the Beta site when they’re ready for testing.
Post 15 – New Blog Hosting (Unknown Date) Now Useless, See Post 14
Post 14 – New “Blog Hosting” by ICT/CSC (Unknown Date) See Comment
{Post removed since I’m going to dump the old Blog Hosting because I’m sick of dealing with Spammers (99% of which came from China). For the month of December, 2009 alone I have caught over 250 spammers that have signed up for my service (obviously ignoring the Terms of Service they agree to when they sign up) and not only banned them, their IP and the email domain they used to sign up, it’s hindered the service to the point where I’m going to lock it down and make people email me to request an account.
Thanks for spoiling it for the rest of the people… Assholes}
Post 13 – Internet is back (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
My grandfather’s funeral was yesterday so I got to say my final good byes… it was hard but at least I can move on now…
Post 12 – Haven’t updated (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
If anyone cares, I’m still mostly deaf on my right side and I’m starting to get really sick of it. I think I’m going to have to go to the hospital about it after all. I’d rather not, I hate not having insurance. I’m going to get ready for work now… Later.
Post 11 – The “Issues” with my hearing (Unknown Date)
The issues with my hearing are back and as of right now I’m kind of phasing in and out with the ability to hear out of my right ear. It hurts like hell, but hey, no insurance means “Deal with it” so that’s what I’m trying to do. I’ve started hanging out in IRC again so if anyone wants to get a hold of me, I’ll give you the details.
Post 10 – Stress Sucks (Was Useless)
Post 9 – Wants, needs, and a bit of free advice (Unknown Date)
I need to learn to take life “by the horns” and get the guts to tell people how I really feel and to fess up to (and about) myself and my past. I need to organize my time so I can attempt to get a social life and make new friends (not to imply my current friends have done something wrong or need to be replaced). I need to find a way to open up. (Not to be confused with the first part.) What I mean is not be afraid of my feelings or the feelings of others.
I need to stick to my “New Year’s” resolutions… (I’ll tell you if you ask, but not on here.) I want to be more involved in my beliefs.
(Quick background: My family is a different religion.) I had basic “ideas” but was for the most part without religion. When I met one of the most important people in my life, she introduced me to something that has become a very important part of my life as well, even though she has passed on. I have studied and I make a true effort to learn more about this “idea” system.
Here’s the free advice: Notice I mention “idea” system. Religion is such a strong word. Religion is based upon beliefs and many people don’t realize beliefs are very hard to change; well ideas are something that can change with the times to remain relevant to “this day and age”.
Post 8 – Life is FUCKED up Pt. 2 (March 2005)
I’ll get around to fixing the web indicators probably this weekend. Not sure why but the code for them worked the first day I used it then it died. {This doesn’t apply to this new blog, those indicators are long gone, never worked right anyway}
Update about my personal life. The calling hours for my grandfather was this morning and I was amazed at how many people were there to show their respects. My insomnia has gotten worse (I hope it’s temporary). I’ve been having weird nightmares that I can’t seem to figure out what they’re about. Um, I have to be to work at noon so I think I’m heading to bed in a few minutes cause I only had 2 hours and 10 minutes (give or take about 5min) of sleep yesterday.
Rest In Peace
Claude A. Phillips
June 1919 – March 2005
Post 7 – Life is FUCKED up (March 2005)
Not only is life unfair… but it’s outright fucked up. I’ve never really been close to any of my family, but the few that I still care about and still interacted with (without the thoughts of killing someone in my head) just passed away. I just got a phone call a few minutes ago saying that my grandfather passed away. He went peaceful and wasn’t in any pain so at least that’s good. I called work and talked to a manager and they are giving me tomorrow off from work so I can go see my grandmother. I’ll write more later.
Post 6 – System is leaving tomorrow (Was Useless)
Post 5 – Wont be around for awhile (Was Useless)
Post 4 – Still sick (Unknown Date)
I’ve had this cold for about a month and it’s pissing me off… on the plus side, I’ve been able to catch up on MUCH needed sleep. Anyway, I’m almost done with the new code for my website. (The Main site). I’ve been working on it for what seems like forever and I hope it turns out good.
Post 3 – It’s after midnight (Unknown Date) Edited a LOT
It’s been a normal thing for years that I can’t sleep. I figured I’ll keep with my new found “Let’s blog useless crap instead of ignoring or forgetting about it”. Things are getting a little better but I’m still tired so I’m cranky about a lot of shit since I can’t really control anything in my life… (like normal). JJ is sick again (the “bad” sick, not just a cold or flu). Um, rather not mention anyone else right now.
Post 2 – Middle of the night, watching “Coneheads” (Unknown Date)
I have to be at work by 10am but I don’t care. I love my job (well, half of it) but the stress of everything happening in the house, my life, and everything else is just getting to me. I’m not sure how much more I can take before I just go nuts… I mean, I’m not being “Suicidal” I’m just ready to punch a wall. I rearranged my room cause I got bored and it helped me a little, finding some of my old things and being able to remember the past… at least the good parts of it. I found the special “card” that was given to me when my grandmother passed away. It brought back a lot. She passed away over 4 years ago and I can still see her smile and hear her laugh. God I miss her. She was the best influence in my life; she made me fight to be a better person, a better man… I’ve lost sight of that recently, but reading the card just makes me want to start that fight again. I need to be the best I can be and to do that, I just have to learn to say No when I should. I think I’ve been able to fix my financial problems again so now it’s up to getting a life. I’ve gotten closer to some new friends, so I’m not as alone as I used to be.
Guess that’s it for now, since I have to go “take care of something” and should attempt to sleep. I’m working a long(er) shift tomorrow again to help out. I don’t normally pray for someone but I want my two my two co-workers that are out for a family emergency know that my thoughts are with them and their family.
Post 1 – First Post (Was Useless)
